It still hurts

I put on a brave face and smile through the pain
I pretend to be okay - nothing to lose, everything to gain
Every day still hurts like the day that you left
I kicked you out and now my heart has a cleft
I miss you, I love you, make it go away
Because I would never again ask you to stay
You used to be mine but you never really were
Your love, was it real? It's all just a blur

Sometimes I wish I just could forget
And sometimes my heart is filled with regret
But forever I'll love you and this is the truth
I'll drink away the pain with a bottle of booze

Was I ever really yours? Was the love really real?
Was this heartache a part of the deal?
Was the drunk really you or was it but a lie?
Why did you encapture my heart and let it die?
I did much stupid but babe so did you
Now all colours in my world are nothing but blue
Love is for losers and love is a game
I never really listened and I'm the only one to blame

Sometimes I wish I just could forget
And sometimes my heart is filled with regret
But forever I'll love you and this is the truth
I'll drink away the pain with a bottle of booze